Because our lives have changed so dramatically over the past year, I keep expecting to wake up one morning and find things back the way they used to be. It’s almost as if I expect someone to show up and say, “Smile, you’re on Candid Camera.” Then Ben and I can laugh in relief over this difficulty that we’ve walked through and return to our former lives.
I know this isn’t going to happen. Our family needs to make some big lifestyle changes. Ben’s health continues to be the primary focus of our lives, and we need to come to terms with the fact that many, if not all of these changes are permanent. We pray for improvement and ask God for healing. But we also need to find practical solutions to some very real health issues.
I know we’re not on Candid Camera (I used to love that show so many years ago!). But Ben and I hold a firm belief that there is Someone watching us, Someone who will one day hold us accountable for the way that we respond to this trial. As difficult as it can be, we desire to live each day with the knowledge that we are on God’s Candid Camera. He is not only watching us, but He is WITH us in this trial. And so we press on, eager to please Him with our responses to circumstances that are so different from the ones we desire.
Please pray for us. Please pray that we would make wise decisions as we try to deal with Ben’s ongoing illness. Please pray that God would protect Ben as the seizures continue. And please pray for our children, who have had to see their father hurting in so many ways over the past year.
Hebrews 12:1-2 Therefore, since we are surrounded by so great a cloud of witnesses, let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.